I’m really worried 😧
Dec 18, 2019
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good morning happy vlogmas day 17 18 you
guys I don't know I am I know I'm like
two days behind I promise I'm gonna
catch him up
you're gonna get him caught up something
I was oh my I'm going to catch up I am
determined to stick to this anyways I am
on my way to my doctor's I slept through
my story of my life
I slept through my alarm and I ended up
waking up funny as it is to my doctor's
office calling me but they were calling
me to schedule Omar for his kidney
garden checkup you know cuz before they
go to kindergarten they got to get some
shots and stuff yeah well I woke up to
them calling me and it was on vibrate my
alarm that goes off like I can hear that
and I didn't wake up to that but I woke
up to my doctor's office calling me for
Omar thank God so I got up I did what's
called a whole bath ho shower
you know walks from the waist down so
you know how no sinks did not wash my
hair I will do that tonight
so we'll actually you know come home and
take a real shower I just oh and good
day for this cop business right now
anyways so anyways so I am racing to my
appointment I cannot believe I am so far
behind
well it's 10:40 I play mince out 11 and
they give you like a 15-minute window to
be running light which means I will
probably get there like right on time or
to this
oh I know what it is so here in Salem
they passed a law that the homeless
cannot be sleeping on the side of the
streets anymore so now everybody has to
get up and pack their stuff and leave
I'm just like where are they supposed to
go like come on Salem get it get to it
you know they they have nowhere to go
it's cold you know it's there I wish I
could open up a homeless shelter myself
and so sad it just breaks my heart every
time I see it it just uh anyways
so anywho I am on my way to my doctor's
so today Ollie has a day off and I
really don't know if we have much going
on today but I will keep you guys posted
if we do anything spectacular ya know
but either way you guys are going to get
some type of a vlog today even if it's a
five minute walk I will get something up
because I know you guys are waiting for
my vlogs and it's like hello Amy get it
together get it together this is your
job
yeah I'm a slacking slacking hard so
anyways I am gonna work hard on it today
oh why is everybody getting over well
come on element Honda Element thank you
thank you drive the speed limit
girlfriend thank you anywho so I hope
you guys are having a wonderful start to
your guys's Wednesday I am and I will
check in with you guys here in just a
little bit and let you guys know what we
is up to
okay I am back from the doctors while
I'm out with other doctors anyways it
went really good all of my pills that he
has had me on like my depression pills
my anxiety pills all of that is all
staying the same we're having good
results with this we're not going to
drink with it at all because otherwise
it's really hard to find a good formula
that works for you and I can honestly
say that we're on a good formula of
medicine that really is making a big
difference I fill in my emotional and
everything else however I did talk to
him about my tiredness because as you
guys have noticed and I even had C I'm
gonna even talk about it
I even had somebody asked like is when
are you yawning when we noticed that you
cut off for a minute yes because I know
that it's a no hanging to some to watch
somebody young because then they start
yawning but not just that it's my
yawning has come back and my entire dis
has come back like I can sleep from
11:00 to 9:00 in the morning turn around
and be ready for a nap an hour later and
some another few hours and I walk around
like a zombie like I legit feel like I
have been days without sleep and in
reality I am sleeping a good amount of
hours there should be no reason but
we're still dealing with my vitamin D
deficiency oh stop please I don't want
you to ramoo please not right now so
we're gonna go back and do another round
of the vitamin D but we're gonna do it
for three months
and then see where that takes us
he is ordering another x-ray for my
upper spine because I have one area on
my spine that is just a direct pain
there's nothing around it there it
doesn't radiate anywhere it's just one
solid spot on my spine so he is ordering
a x-ray for my upper back and then also
he is ordering our dough so then and
then tomorrow is my MRI to see what's
going on with my lower back and he just
told me for right now just to get
through some of the pain because the
pain is so bad
wonderful of you guys are on really cool
right up here on the right hand side is
where like all of the homeless has been
sleeping because they don't have
anywhere else to go and it just breaks
my heart because they're making them all
leave and it's like where are they gonna
go there's nowhere for them to go
measure so sad anyways but to help with
the pain of my back he wants me to just
go ahead and try and do like loader cane
yeah they have like the city out to
clean up
it's just sad
breaks my heart
and now you'll see them over here look
they're just sitting there at the park
like what am I supposed to do where are
we supposed to go it's like they're not
wanted anywhere
okay I just shown you guys what kind of
what we've been dealing with her in
Salem I mean the homeless has gotten
really bad here in Salem
not in a bet I mean it is in a bad way
because I don't like seeing homeless
people it's sad you know especially it's
35 degrees and these people are just
sitting out in the cold freezing and we
don't have enough warming stations you
know that can hold so many people and
they're trying to open up this one
facility here in Salem it was enough if
I'm understanding the article correctly
it's supposed to be like a prison that
was built to become a prison but then
they ended up never using it for that so
there's a guy that it wants to open that
for the homeless but with that comes a
lot of stuff like permits and it's a
couple good million dollars I guess so
he's trying to have as many people like
put money in to help with it so I'm just
hoping and praying that it happens
because sad but anyways back to my back
so he wants me to go ahead and try and
use muscle rubs loader cane patches
whatever I can for right now and he's
like I don't know if it's gonna do
anything because clearly we're dealing
with something that's internal like it's
inside my back and we don't know how
deep these things will go to if it will
do anything to like get into my muscle
or not but you know at this point to try
something is better than not doing
anything so I don't mind I'll try it so
I'm gonna go today and get me some load
of hay cane patches and see if we can't
do something for the pain because we're
not doing an ibuprofen because ibuprofen
can cause swelling and he doesn't want
to cause any more of that then I already
have it's just like I'm in a buckle of a
mess and clearly it's I oughta lose my
weight you know I mean that's just
hands-down that's what I got to do and
he said that he's like you know a lot of
this we can avoid if you get this weight
off and he's like but until you do that
he's like you're just gonna keep adding
meds to your list because you have to be
able to function and I don't want to do
that so you know I told him I'm like I
know you know and he's you know he's a
good doctor he doesn't preach to me
about my weight but he has been lately
and I mean he's been my doctor since I
was 16 years old and he's a he's an
amazing doctor but he's starting to get
hard on me now like you know and I know
it's because he's had me for so long and
he's been through all of this with me
and he's trying so many things but you
know I at the end of the day it's it's
up to me to do what he's telling me to
do and if I don't do it he can't
I mean he's not sitting there holding
this wound to my mouth you know I mean I
am an adult I have to take
responsibility for these things and I
know that so I really listen to him
today and so anyways we'll see what's
gonna happen
with the vitamin D and then get those
loaded cane pouches or whatever I can
find to help with the pain he doesn't
want to give me any pain meds like
what are those you know
he doesn't want to give me like any
actual payments because I just don't
want to be taking those and I've that to
him so he doesn't they courage it
so anyways well I am almost home I'm
gonna go and check in with Holly and the
babies and see my is in school so we'll
see what's going on
I had these all jacked up but I will
check in with you guys in a little bit I
just want to go in and see what the plan
is for today I know we are gonna have to
go to Costco eventually because I got to
go and pick up my meds and drop a
prescription off so I know that's one
thing we have to do today and I want to
kind of do what we need to do today
because later it's supposed to start
raining and it is supposed to continue
to rain all the way through Saturday and
they're talking about even flooding like
it's supposed to get really bad so oh
yes we're in the thick of winter right
we're in the shake at least it's not
snow that's a good thing anyways alright
I'll check in with you guys a bit